I just want to hug you, that’s all : )
Ah! That’s so nice, thank you so much! Umm, yeah there is. When I was younger I got seriously picked on. I was going through an awkward body stage and a girl I went to school with (this was in middle school, mind you) never let me forget it. She used to call Ms. Piggy and through most of middle school I didn’t really have any friends because of it. The summer before high school my body just changed, you know, and when I went into high school all of the sudden these people who never wanted to be my friend before, wanted to now. I was suddenly “attractive” and therefore good enough to talk to. For the first few months I got really caught up in it. I wasn’t very good to my body, and I became pretty obsessed with getting thinner. I realized how truly unhappy I was, and how I didn’t have any real friends, and I changed things. I got healthy, I met good people who loved me for whatever I was.
I’ll be entirely honest, some days it’s really hard to not feel not good enough. Not thin enough, or pretty enough. I occasionally find myself comparing myself to other girls. Sometimes I look at my boyfriend, who is fucking gorgeous, seriously people think he should be a model, and feel like he could do better. I have some of the most beautiful girls as friends and feel a little interior. But ultimately I remind myself I have other things to offer, and these people don’t love me because of my size or anything of the sort.
I hope this answers your question : )